Posts Tagged ‘Reflection’

For all my friends on the journey of humanity.

Dear Human by Courtney Walsh

Dear Human: You’ve got it all wrong.
You didn’t come here to master unconditional love.
That is where you came from and where you’ll return.
You came here to learn personal love.
Universal love. Messy love. Sweaty love.
Crazy love. Broken love. Whole love.
Infused with divinity. Lived through the grace of stumbling.
Demonstrated through the beauty of… messing up. Often.
You didn’t come here to be perfect. You already are.
You came here to be gorgeously human. Flawed and fabulous.
And then to rise again into remembering.
But unconditional love? Stop telling that story.
Love, in truth, doesn’t need ANY other adjectives.
It doesn’t require modifiers.
It doesn’t require the condition of perfection.
It only asks that you show up. And do your best.
That you stay present and feel fully.
That you shine and fly and laugh and cry
and hurt and heal and fall and get back up
and play and work and live and die as YOU.
It’s enough. It’s Plenty.

Being Human at the Awaken Studio www.phillipcoupal.ca

Being Human at the Awaken Studio http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

When will you ever be over that… ?

Early last December I was out with a friend.  We were in the Gay Village here in Toronto, having a coffee in the late afternoon. We got to talking about relationship and that brought me to speaking about some of what goes on in me and passes through me when I let myself dwell in the pain of rejection and heart ache that I am able to feel in the dissolution of a relationship.

As our conversation developed, I was a bit surprised as I spoke, that the friend that I was with, asked rather abruptly… “When will you ever be over that? … What will it take for you to move on?… It has been so long will you ever be over this?…”

The particular relationship, that I will speak of here, is not what one might expect. This is not about the severing of a relationship between two human beings but the dissolution of the relationship between myself, a human being, and a corporation.

These questions about the way I process my pain and grief  around my separation, left me to wonder and ponder what was going on in me that I could not get over what had happened. This left me to analyze what really did happen and why I should feel so hurt by a business, a corporation.

First, I drew little distinction between the corporation and the human beings that were steering the ship, driving the organization. In my experience, the voices on the phone, the fingers typing the emails were human and not corporate.

Second, I had given, over several years, a lot of my energy, passion, skill and devotion to this company.  I had given my human LIFE force to this corporate organization. Again it never felt like I was involved with a company but with a group of people. I felt I was involved with other human beings. I felt that all was friendly and that I could be vulnerable and continue to operate in my human way, rather than in the defenses of a hard-shelled corporate and very inhumane manner.

Last, I look at what really happened. All of it was business and I simply could not see that the humans I was dealing with could disengage from their money driven pursuit to get to a heart driven pursuit. The humans and the corporate zombies could not be separated. My defenses as a human were compromised and I simply had to close up and wall myself off from the corporate onslaught.

In the face of the dissolution of our once tender relationship, I had to defend myself in the most silent ways. I was threatened, by the other – my former partner, with all of the corporate defenses. These including law suits, the forfeiture of my daily income and finally the threat of unending bullying and threatening if I ever spoke or wrote of the experience that I had with this small and ultimately very predatory and dangerous corporation.

This is the crux of the whole experience for me. That these PEOPLE, fellow HUMAN BEINGS, could not act like the human beings that they looked like; however, instead stayed in their corporate, financial and money driven pursuit. This organization that spoke of spirit, this organization that spoke of heart, this organization that spoke of human integrity and human healing was ultimately unable to operate from a heart centered model and shifted to, what was for me, a rather vicious and hurtful, greedy corporate model.

I wonder to this day what happened to the humans that were involved in the operations of this business. These humans had touched me, showed themselves to me in truly human forms. Part of the hurt and the great sense of fracture in this very painful separation is that the humans disappeared and were replaced by vacuous and dangerous zombie like human forms that were simply robots of American Corporate culture.

So, back to the question, “when will I be over this”?  I don’t think I ever will.

The experience, this rather ugly corporate divorce, has ingrained in me a wariness and deep felt skepticism of corporate culture. The experience has taught me that indeed, corporations are NOT human. This wariness and skepticism has me super vigilant as I work to operate in a heart centered world rather than in a corporate and money centered world.

Everyday this scar that is in me, poses to me the question and offers me the challenge… “Can you live your HUMAN life, and carry on your HUMAN business in life, from a HEART centered model?”

I have determined in my musings and in my stumbling through life that it is my greatest pleasure and my wildest dream to live my life fully from my heart. It is my profound desire to treat each and every being that I encounter in the most humane, kindly, compassionate and loving way that is within me.  -♥-

Here I am everyday bringing forward, my very human SWEET JUICY HEART.

BE well! and Blessed BE! Glad to have a FAERIE name that fits.

SWEET JUICY HEART - www.phillipcoupal.ca

SWEET JUICY HEART – http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

 

Awaken Studio + Phillip Coupal + Counselling + Coaching + Bodywork Toronto, Ontario Canada

Events March 2013

  • Sunday March 3

Heart Jam – Sharing Circle for Men

Sharing and witnessing shine your heartfelt light in a welcoming circle of men.

Share from your heart in a caring environment. Witness the hearts of men.

Be prepared to be seen, heard and witnessed with kindness and compassion.

7:00 pm to 9:00 pm – Awaken Studio 270 Carlaw Avenue Toronto PWYC http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

Heart Jam  March 3 2013  7:00pm to 9:00 pm Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

Heart Jam
March 3 2013
7:00pm to 9:00 pm
Awaken Studio Toronto
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

-♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥-

  • Wednesday March 6

LIFE Force – Creative Source – Salon Series

Body Aware – Body Alive

Explore self touch and pleasure in a small group men dedicated to their body, their pleasure and their awareness of their sexy queer spirit.

7:00 pm to 10:00 pm – Awaken Studio 270 Carlaw Avenue Toronto $25.00 preregistration only at http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force - Creative Source Body Aware - Body Alive March 6 2013  7:00pm to 10:00 pm Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force – Creative Source
Body Aware – Body Alive
March 6 2013
7:00pm to 10:00 pm
Awaken Studio Toronto
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

-♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥-

  • Thursday March 7

LIFE Force Movement for Men

Awaken Kundilini, Chi and Life Force energies in your body.

Breathe, Move and Meditate into an expanded sense of self.

7:00 pm to 8:30 pm – Awaken Studio 270 Carlaw Avenue Toronto $10.00 preregistered $20.00 at the door http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force  Movement for Men March 7 2013  7:00pm to 8:30 pm Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force
Movement for Men
March 7 2013
7:00pm to 8:30 pm
Awaken Studio Toronto
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

-♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥-

  • Saturday March 9

Exquisite Connections for Men

A full day of exploration, experiment and education, massage, tantra and touch techniques to enhance pleasure in the body.

9:30pm to 6:30 pm – Awaken Studio 270 Carlaw Avenue Toronto $150.00 http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

Exquisite Connections for Men Discover Pleasure in the Body March 7 2013  10am to 7pm Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

Exquisite Connections for Men
Discover Pleasure in the Body
March 7 2013
10am to 7pm
Awaken Studio Toronto
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

-♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥-

  • Sunday March 10

Men 4 Men Touch Exchange

This gathering for men delivers the opportunity to give and receive full bodied touch, with a group of like hearted men. Explore elements of Taoist Erotic Massage and erotic genital touch. Find new paths to a full bodied expression of pleasure.

1:00pm to 6:00 pm – Awaken Studio 270 Carlaw Avenue Toronto $45.00 advance $55.00 at the door http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

Men 4 Men Touch Exchange March 10 2013  1pm to 6pm Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

Men 4 Men Touch Exchange
March 10 2013
1pm to 6pm
Awaken Studio Toronto
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

-♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥-

  • Wednesday March 13

LIFE Force – Creative Source – Salon Series

Queer Spirit – Gay Soul

Come out and share your story in a group of whole hearted men.

Examine the question:

What it is like Living as a Gay Man in a Hetero-Normative World”

7:00 pm to 10:00 pm – Awaken Studio 270 Carlaw Avenue Toronto $25.00 preregistration only at http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force Creative Source Queer Spirit - Gay Soul March 13 2013  7:00 pm to 10:00 pm Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force Creative Source
Queer Spirit – Gay Soul
March 13 2013
7:00 pm to 10:00 pm
Awaken Studio Toronto
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

-♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥-

  • Thursday March 14

LIFE Force Movement for Men

Awaken Kundilini, Chi and Life Force energies in your body.

Breathe, Move and Meditate into an expanded sense of self.

7:00 pm to 8:30 pm – Awaken Studio 270 Carlaw Avenue Toronto $10.00 preregistered $20.00 at the door http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force  Movement for Men March 14 2013  7:00pm to 8:30 pm Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force
Movement for Men
March 14 2013
7:00pm to 8:30 pm
Awaken Studio Toronto
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

-♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥-

  • Wednesday March 20

LIFE Force – Creative Source – Salon Series

Touch Explorations for Men

Join in an exploration of Sensual, Erotic and Sexual Touch. What are the experiences that you would like to have? What discoveries would you like for your body? What explorations would you like to have for yourself to have a vibrant and balanced sex life? Sex Education like you have never experienced.

7:00 pm to 10:00 pm – Awaken Studio 270 Carlaw Avenue Toronto $50.00 preregistration only at http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force Creative Source Touch Explorations March 20 2013  7:00 pm to 10:00 pm Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force Creative Source
Touch Explorations
March 20 2013
7:00 pm to 10:00 pm
Awaken Studio Toronto
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

-♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥-

  • Thursday March 21

LIFE Force Movement for Men

Awaken Kundilini, Chi and Life Force energies in your body.

Breathe, Move and Meditate into an expanded sense of self.

7:00 pm to 8:30 pm – Awaken Studio 270 Carlaw Avenue Toronto $10.00 preregistered $20.00 at the door http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force  Movement for Men March 21 2013  7:00pm to 8:30 pm Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force
Movement for Men
March 21 2013
7:00pm to 8:30 pm
Awaken Studio Toronto
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

-♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥-

  • Special Full – Weekend Event

  • Saturday and Sunday March 23-24

Experiential Embodied Erotic Explorations for Men – Anal Touch

This weekend workshops bring a fresh and up-to-date approach to Sex Education, Conscious Eroticism and Body Awareness. Explore anal touch in a safe, sane, playful and uplifting environment. Interview required before registration.

10:00am to 7:00 pm both days – Awaken Studio 270 Carlaw Avenue Toronto $250.00 advance $300.00 at the door http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

Experiential Embodied Erotic Exploration for Men Anal Touch Weekend  March 23 and 24 Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

Experiential Embodied Erotic Exploration for Men
Anal Touch Weekend
March 23 and 24
Awaken Studio Toronto
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

-♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥-

  • Wednesday March 27

LIFE Force – Creative Source – Salon Series

Creative Artistic Expression

Explore and create an Erotic Self Portrait. No Artistic experience is required, simply a curiosity and willingness to explore your erotic self. We will capture this self in an artistic media. Come OUT and introduce yourself to your Erotic Nature.

7:00 pm to 10:00 pm – Awaken Studio 270 Carlaw Avenue Toronto $50.00 preregistration only at http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force Creative Source Expansive Expression March 27 2013  7:00 pm to 10:00 pm Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force Creative Source
Expansive Expression
March 27 2013
7:00 pm to 10:00 pm
Awaken Studio Toronto
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

-♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥-

  • Thursday March 28

LIFE Force Movement for Men

Awaken Kundilini, Chi and Life Force energies in your body.

Breathe, Move and Meditate into an expanded sense of self.

7:00 pm to 8:30 pm – Awaken Studio 270 Carlaw Avenue Toronto $10.00 preregistered $20.00 at the door http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force  Movement for Men March 28 2013  7:00pm to 8:30 pm Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

LIFE Force
Movement for Men
March 28 2013
7:00pm to 8:30 pm
Awaken Studio Toronto
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

-♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥-

  • Newly Added

  • Friday March 29

Men 4 Men Touch Exchange – Special Edition Good Friday

This gathering for men delivers the opportunity to give and receive full bodied touch, with a group of like hearted men. Explore elements of Taoist Erotic Massage and erotic genital touch. Find new paths to a full bodied expression of pleasure.

Don’t feel yourself to be a part of the Crucifixion Scene? Come out and explore your desire for touch in a pleasurable and uplifting environment.

1:00 pm to 6:00 pm – Awaken Studio 270 Carlaw Avenue Toronto $45.00 advance $55.00 at the door Limited to 12 participants. http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

Men 4 Men Touch Exchange Special Holiday Edition March 29 2013  1pm to 6pm Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

Men 4 Men Touch Exchange
Special Holiday Edition
March 29 2013
1pm to 6pm
Awaken Studio Toronto
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

-♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥–♥-

  • Sunday March 31

Heart Jam – Sharing Circle for Men

Sharing and witnessing shine your heartfelt light in a welcoming circle of men.

Share from your heart in a caring environment. Witness the hearts of men.

Be prepared to be seen, heard and witnessed with kindness and compassion.

7:00 pm to 9:00 pm – Awaken Studio 270 Carlaw Avenue Toronto PWYC http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

Heart Jam  March 31 2013  7:00pm to 9:00 pm Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

Heart Jam
March 31 2013
7:00pm to 9:00 pm
Awaken Studio Toronto
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

Men 4 Men Touch Exchange – Monday February 18

Men experiment with giving and receiving erotic touch in a safe, honouring, uplifting environment.

Experiential Embodied Erotic Exploration – Healing Bodywork for Men

Touch exchanges are offered at the Awaken Studio on a monthly basis. Curious? Please contact Phillip Coupal at phillip@phillipcoupal.ca

Celebrate your erotic nature, honour your self with heartfelt touch.

This gathering of men delivers the opportunity to give and receive full bodied touch. The elements of Taoist Erotic Massage and erotic and genital touch as originally taught by Joseph Kramer are incorporated into each exchange.

There is a practice of Breath Work, Body Awareness and Conscious Heartfelt Touch. Each exchange is offered on a weekend afternoon and is held in the comfortable, well equipped and private space provided by the Awaken Studio.

You will be asked to make a personal agreement before you attend this event. This agreement about group behaviour will be outlined in a confirming letter and delivered to all participants.

Spaces are limited this group is limited to 12 participants.

If you are curious about this group and would like to have more information before you register please email and let me know your questions, comments or concerns at phillip@phillipcoupal.ca

Check the website for cpmplete information and registration details:
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/Touch-Exchange-Phillip-Coupal-Counselling-Coaching-Bodywork-Toronto-Gay-Men

Touch Exchange for Men - Awaken Studio - Toronto Explore Erotic and Sensual Touch in a safe and uplifting environment

Touch Exchange for Men – Awaken Studio – Toronto
Explore Erotic and Sensual Touch in a safe and uplifting environment

Men experiment with giving and receiving erotic touch in a safe, honouring, uplifting environment. Men 4 Men Touch Exchange.

Experiential Embodied Erotic Exploration – Healing Bodywork for Men

Touch exchanges are offered at the Awaken Studio on a monthly basis. Curious? Please contact Phillip Coupal at phillip@phillipcoupal.ca

Celebrate your erotic nature, honour your self with heartfelt touch.

This gathering of men delivers the opportunity to give and receive full bodied touch. The elements of Taoist Erotic Massage and erotic and genital touch as originally taught by Joseph Kramer are incorporated into each exchange.

There is a practice of Breath Work, Body Awareness and Conscious Heartfelt Touch. Each exchange is offered on a weekend afternoon and is held in the comfortable, well equipped and private space provided by the Awaken Studio.

You will be asked to make a personal agreement before you attend this event. This agreement about group behaviour will be outlined in a confirming letter and delivered to all participants.

Spaces are limited this group is limited to 12 participants.

If you are curious about this group and would like to have more information before you register please email and let me know your questions, comments or concerns at phillip@phillipcoupal.ca

Check the website for cpmplete information and registration details:
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/Touch-Exchange-Phillip-Coupal-Counselling-Coaching-Bodywork-Toronto-Gay-Men

Touch Exchange for Men - Awaken Studio - Toronto Explore Erotic and Sensual Touch in a safe and uplifting environment

Touch Exchange for Men – Awaken Studio – Toronto
Explore Erotic and Sensual Touch in a safe and uplifting environment

Busy days as I promote and put into the public view the new offerings of: Exploratory Erotic Events at the Awaken Studio

The most exciting of course are the monthly Weekend Events.

  • Experiential Embodied Erotic Exploration – Anal Touch in October 26, 27, 28
  • Experiential Embodied Erotic Exploration – Genital Touch in November 9, 10, 11
  • Experiential Embodied Erotic Exploration – Multi Orgasmic Experience November 30, December 1, 2

There also Sunday afternoon touch exchanges each month

  • Men Touching Men – October 14
  • Men Touching Men – November 18
  • Men Touching Men – December 16

Weekday Evening events offered Wednesday and Thursday

  • LIFE Force – Movement – Exploring Breath Movement and Meditation – Thursday Evenings
  • LIFE Force – Creative Source – Exploring erotic portraiture through visualization and artistic expression – alternating Wednesday Evenings
  • Erotic Education – Exploring sensual awareness and well-being through peaceful touch – alternating Wednesday Evenings

All this as I continue to see and work with

  • Counselling – Clients – Individuals and Couples
  • Coaching – Clients – Individuals by phone and in person
  • Bodywork – Clients – Individually exploring Erotic Education and Sacred Intimacy

For information or to book an introductory session for any of these services please contact me at phillip@phillipcoupal.ca or call me at 416-557-7312

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Beneath the surface there is something else? or beneath the surface is more of what is visible on the outside?

I wonder as I look at this painting … ?

There is such a visage on the exterior what is on the inside… ?

What was in Caravaggio’s spirit as he created this…?

How does my interior match my exterior? or do they?

Beneath - Toronto 2012

The EDGE…

Sometimes I fell like I will tumble over and sometimes I feel like I am balanced and able to negotiate my way without loosing my balance…

The edge is always there and I simply need to proceed. What is the worst that could happen? I could fall over or I could keep wandering along being fearful.

So I will dance on the edge and be naive and full of joy. Am I in denial of the edge? No! I am simply choosing to stay within myself and not let the outside elements affect me or make my experience something that is outside of me.

Today I will remain within my vessel, my integral space. I will dance and sing and be joyful when someone chooses to join. I will trust that I am being watched over and taken care of.

Watched over... Toronto January 2012

When you devote yourself to something and you are thinking about that something, practicing that something, living that something…

Does that mean that you are practicing devotion?

I like the idea that by devoting myself I can be devotional! ♥

The idea of being devotional and devoting myself to something sits much better with me than worshipful… meditation or prayer… and I imagine that devotion moves in the same realms as worship and prayer which must look like: dreaming life and making life happen…

Smiling and BEing devotional - January 2012

 

Sometime I can become obsessed with a project…

Today when I mentioned this to my husband… I said something like … “I feel bad because I have become obsessed with this latest project” He in turn surprised me and replied. That my obsessions were some of my best attributes and sometimes the result of the obsessive work was some of my most brilliant creation.

I was surprised. I had always thought that those projects that could consume my entire energy were not my best moments… Sometimes I just have no clue of what those around me are truly thinking. I am glad my husband shared his experience. I am glad because I had a little insight into myself that I often do not see.

LOVE – PEACE – JOY

Sometimes things are not as they appear... Strega Rome 2010