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Someone asked me “What got me interested in doing what I do?” My response took some time as I needed to go through a few layers.

Right down at the bottom was that there was nothing here in Toronto that offered me what I was looking for. A safe place for me to gather with other men, to talk, touch and simply be myself without judgement and without having to become someone that I was not.

As a part of the story, I had travelled often to the United States to participate and assist in the events that offered what I was looking for. I wanted more of this and I wanted it with the people who are directly in my life on a day to day basis. I was tired of travelling. I was tired of making myself fit the corporate image that was demanded of me to be a part of these practices, for men coming together to be themselves as they related with other men. In my travels I had learned extensively about “holding space”, “creating a safe and uplifting environment” and ultimately I had learned that one of my strengths was that I could be myself, relaxed and loving as I welcomed men into the spaces and places of my dreams. I could find myself and be myself as I supported the men around me to be themselves.

The beginning of the Awaken Studio took place here in Toronto in March of 2012 as I prepared to offer this space for many events as a part of a very diverse program. The “NEW Beginning” really took place a few months later as I realized that I was totally and profoundly alone and on my own. I realized that my travelling days were behind me and that I simply needed to stand in my own ability to create, innovate and be exactly who I wanted to be. I had to give myself permission to cut the ties and simply be me and go for what I wanted and what I had dreamed of all of my life.

From the beginning, back in 2012 and even before that, for what seems to me to be all of time, I have grown and developed and found myself. I have explored and discovered the strength to stand on my own as I accept help, love and support from those around me. I have learned and found how to transform fear and uncertainty into permission to move forward fearlessly.

As an ongoing practice of my life I express gratitude on a daily basis. Today I find that I am profoundly grateful for the teachers that have brought me to this place. I can even say that I am profoundly grateful for those who have done their best to belittle me, tell me that I am irrelevant, that I will not succeed and that I am misguided for doing this on my own, I am actually able to be thankful to these bullies and miss guided souls.   I am profoundly grateful for the men who I interact with daily for they are the reason that I live. I am profoundly grateful for my husband of over 40 years as he is the reason that I can love the way I do.

The Happy Ending is not nearly so fraught with angst and fear as the New Beginning. The Happy Ending is really an ongoing opening into the world as I become more and more myself, grateful everyday for the world around me and the LOVE and BEAUTY that supports me and nourishes me.

LOVE – LIGHT and Blessings to all.

Awaken Studio Toronto

Awaken Studio Toronto

Awaken Studio Toronto

Awaken Studio Toronto

Today is the day!

A big step forward.

I just stepped in and signed the papers… there will be movement soon.  Thursday infact.

The Center for Joyful Living.

Watching in wonder!

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Today I am UnWRAPPED

I usually carefully put myself together, wrapping myself up, making certain non of the loose ends are showing. There seems to be no wrapping today. I am full of all of my passions and full of all of my fears and full of all of the joys of my life.

I am particularly aware of how raw I feel when I hear, inconsistencies and unbalanced elements. Hearing imbalances, untruths, lies has me feel a little raw today. The world can be cruel and unkind. I will need to be extra generous with my own self care.

I will be sweet and kind and generous and finally extraordinarily gracious with myself in order to compensate for the: gas lighting, crazy making, unbalanced emotional response that takes place in me as I hear lies or untruths.

The sweetness and graciousness will allow me to glow. The glow will let me be safe and know that it is alright to be UnWRAPPED.

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I want a little sugar
in my bowl
I want a little sweetness
down in my soul
I could stand some lovin’




This moment is the ideal time to replenish, rejuvenate and get recharged for the next. I always feel better after some loving self-care. I am very often surprised at how much of this ever-loving care that I need and must have. Caring for myself I get to really be practicing so much of what I put out to others. Being loving and kind as well as generous to myself always makes me feel better and it the perfect reward for all of the challenging work that I do.

In Self-Care there is redemption!

Today is a LOVE ME day! Full of all of the pleasure and joy that I can create,  just for me! I am going to generous with myself!

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Taking action

Taking action helps. Taking action STOPS the freight train of procrastination. Taking action lets me feel and know that I am doing what I need to do. Taking action keeps me in the track.

Today I will continue to take action and grow the life I so desire.

Call to ACTION ~ Wildwood Summer 2009


A new workshop being offered here in Toronto
Dancing on the Ecstatic Path for Men
Bridging the energy of Earth and Sky with the Energy of the Heart
A two-day exploration of Erotic Energy
Techniques will involve Touch, Breath and Movement
Toronto – Ontario – Canada
February 4th and 5th 2012
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Building my resources today in preparation for the next two days.

I am giving myself plenty of time and space to build energy, focus and clarity for the days ahead. I am grateful today for all of the wealth of past experience. 

Today I will revel in the abundance of choice that is created for me from the wealth of material that enriches my past.

Choosing from the wealth of past experience - Mexico 2008

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Imaging and preparing today.

There is much new on the horizon. Today I will prepare for the newness of the new and the unknown quality of what has not been experienced before. I will play on both sides. Eager in the joy and exuberance of the unknown.

I will revel in surprise.

Playing on both sides ~ Venice 2011

Preparing for Power Surrender and Intimacy at Easton Mountain October 21, 22 and 23 Easton Mountain, New York

Power Surrender and Intimacy ~ BDSM with the Body Electric School Discovering the Play in Bondage and Discipline.


Being generous always seems to smooth  me out. When I am generous I seem to attract my own good feelings from within. Generosity seems to be a salve for me. To give a little of anything, it could be a kind word or a bit of encouragement, makes me feel better about me. I feel and can experience that I am doing something that is generative and constructive.

Today I will be generous. Smiling ❤


Living fully with generosity, giving with Heart ~


Set Yourself FREE!

Only you have to power to set yourself free. Give yourself the control to be in the driving seat.

I feel so much better when I let myself be exactly who and how I am even with the influence of external forces. I feel so much better when I know I am free. I feel so much better when I know I am determining my future. I feel so much better when I contribute to myself. I feel so much better when I let myself shine.

Set Yourself FREE!

Today I will be FREE!

FREEDOM ~ Venice

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TODAY is all about the BERRIES! I love the termFrutti di Bosco”, the Fruit of the Woods.

I love berries and they are good for me! I will share my yummy treat that I made for the day.

Whenever I have this delicious treat I feel like I can be Pan in the forest, a satyr in the wood…


Strawberries – Raspberries – Blueberries – Blackberries

Slice the strawberries, toss in the raspberries, blueberries and blackberries. Sprinkle with a little sugar or drizzle a little honey, add some finely grated lemon zest. Sprinkle all with a little Lemoncello or a bit of orange juice. Toss all together. Cover and let sit for the afternoon. It is better if the berries not kept cold but left at room temperature. The berries will ripen and their flavour will blossom if they are allowed to be a little warm. 

Drizzling Sauce

Sour Cream – Sugar or Honey – Lemon Zest – Lemoncello or Amoretto or Orange Juice

Sprinkle about 2 or 3 table spoons of sugar or honey over a pint of sour cream. Add the finely grated zest of one lemon and a couple of  tablespoons of Liqueur or Juice and stir together. The consistency should be of thick cream. Add more or less liquid to get to the consistency you like.


Meringues, Croissant or Brioche, Day Old Cake. A few tablespoons of sweet and flavourful liquid.  One piece or slice for each portion.


Splatter a big spoon of the Drizzling Sauce on a plate. Break the base up into 2 or 3 pieces, scatter pieces over the Drizzling Sauce on the plate and sprinkle with some Vin Santo, Orange Juice or Liqueur. Splatter a bit more Drizzling Sauce over the base. Generously scatter lots of Berries and their juice over the base. Splatter some more Drizzling Sauce over the Berries. Voila!

Serve at once encouraging everyone to sop up all of the juice and the sauce on the plate with whatever you have used for the base.

TODAY I will enjoy my berries.

“Berries with Drizzling Sauce” yummy! – Aug 2011

If you are looking to find ways for you to be inspired and find activities that can sooth your soul I might be able to serve as a guide. Contact me at: Phillip Coupal