Hope ~ the Mantra for Today
Today I will be hopeful and remain in the expansive quality that opens in me when I am filled with Hope.
Emerging from the test on Friday. Today is Monday and I feel like I just woke up after a long sleep. All went well. I am curious to see where this flows to next.
My heart is open and clear. My heart leaps with JOY!
the long tapers
of cattails
are bursting and floating away over
the blue shoulders
of the ponds,
and every pond,
no matter what its
name is, is
nameless now.
Every year
everything
I have ever learned
in my lifetime
leads back to this: the fires
and the black river of loss
whose other side
is salvation,
whose meaning
none of us will ever know.
To live in this world
you must be able
to do three things:
to love what is mortal;
to hold it
against your bones knowing
your own life depends on it;
and, when the time comes to let it go,
to let it go.
Thanks to Mary Oliver
Reading today.
Preparing for a diagnostic surgery tomorrow. I am preparing for what will happen tomorrow and creating some time over the weekend for recovery.
I am reading, “The Velvet Rage: Overcoming the Pain of Growing Up Gay in a Straight Man’s World”. Having read a few pages I have an inkling now that this read is going to be a valuable and informative journey. My first response… “I wish … that man who was my primary teacher and trainer while I was training to become a counsellor had read this… Perhaps he would have been more empathetic as a gay man working with other gay men…”
This is going to be a delightful ride, a ride and a read and a rest that I am looking forward to. I am sure this book will take my mind off of the fear and wondering about the surgical procedure taking place tomorrow, I have this thought that this read will sooth me and help me rejuvenate.
Today I will be happy and joyful and in the pleasure of being me… AS PINK AS THAT IS!
Rest has transformed the way I feel.
Yesterday I took care of many small detailed elements that were stressing me.
Today I feel well rested after a deep and undisturbed sleep. Last night was the first night in many that I felt no pain in the middle of the night. To wake up after a night of rest was delightful.
I feel energized and enriched by rest.
Today I will take care of a few more pieces, I will allow for the tranquility to flow. I will savour the delight of feeling rested and rejuvenated and unafraid.
Glads are a delight! ❤
“If you never did you should. These things are fun and fun is good” ~ Dr. Seuss
Today is all about doing, preparing, planning and letting go. Doing some of the things, taking care of some of the stuff that I have little practice with. By all of this I mean that today I must enlist help. I must ask those around me to help me. Some of this asking is simply for a thought, with some a big deed. Asking has always been a challenge for me.
Today I will trust and ask. I will seek the help that I need to move ahead. I will take care of myself and in this self-care take care of the world and the loved ones around me. ❤
“The Angel Within” – My very own Guardian Angel. Protecting me and helping. September 13th, 2011
A poem arrived in the Mail
“let yourself be silently drawn by the pull of what you really love” ~ Rumi
My heart flys open when I read these words. A beautiful card full of appreciation and warmth. My gratitude for all that life brings seeps into my being and opens the flood gates of a JUICY HEART.
Today I will open the envelope and be filled with joy and surprise at what lies within.
Easy Does IT Today. Everything is moment by moment and piece by piece. Taking care of one element, item, task – completing this piece, celebrating and moving on to the next. I find it hard to believe that this is all in preparation for an exploration.
I will be patient and appreciate the process and all that life brings.
A Photo altered rendition of the Vials of Blood taken from my arm this morning. September 9 2011
Today is one step at a time.
I will not judge anything of the size, depth or length of each step. A step is a step. I am diligently moving ahead one step at a time.
This is actually difficult for me as I am usually dancing ahead of myself. Today is different and it seems that each step must be taken precisely, with assurance and determination. I must constantly let myself know that this is actually dancing, simply to a different cadence and rhythm. The difference between doing the Watusi and Irish Step Dance, the difference between break dancing and a classical minuet.
Today I will love the dance and trust that my steps will be guided by the light of the moon. I will adore the dance as it unfolds. I will surrender to life’s cadence. ❤