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An amazing weekend at the Awaken Studio.
Friday evening a movie – A Quiet Passion. 
Saturday morning a Naked Yoga class – with Kevin. 
Saturday afternoon an introductory touch class – First Touch 
Sunday a glorious day – Sensual Touch with Tantric Exploration. 
Thrilled to bring such vibrant connection to the courageous men willing to gather at the Awaken Studio to practice generosity, compassion, kindness and grace. 
I am blessed! 

Glorious men gathered all through the weekend.
 Friday evening we watched A Quiet Passion, a movie by Terence Davies about the American poetess, Emily Dickinson. A beautiful and lyrical portrayal of an often misunderstood life. Queer Heart Explores Cinema, a quiet community gathering of men willing to enjoy their love of the art of cinema.

 Saturday morning getting to the studio to warm it up and create an inviting space for the men who gathered to practice yoga, stretching, moving and breathing.  Naked Yoga for Men, a warm and welcome space for men to share the practice of yoga.

 Saturday afternoon, a quick transition to open the space to a new group of men. Men gathering together to explore new concepts of community. The slow and conscious practice of intention with clear consent. First Touch – an Introduction, is a delight as the men open to new realms of connection to themselves and those who they are with, touching and breathing.

 Sunday was a glorious day. Warm and bright, the heavens shone down on the men and the space. The exploration, a slow practice of generosity. Allowing touch to create balance, awareness and insight. The conscious experiment of building and harnessing erotic and sexual energy, taking this energy and opening it to purpose, power and connection. The magical quality of connection as we stood in the power of treating each other and ourselves with compassion, kindness and grace. Sensual Touch with a Tantric Exploration, men open their senses and desires to create an erotic experience.

I am grateful for the presence and the trust of the 20 men who graced the Awaken Studio, bringing and sharing their light and shadow, their heart and spirit.
I am blessed. 

Friday March 2 to 4, 2018 at the Awaken Studio Toronto.

Amazing Weekend March 2 3 and 4 2018

Amazing Weekend March 2 3 and 4 2018

Celebrating the Awaken Studio Toronto
Joyful as men gather to embody the simple undertaking of holding each other with compassion, grace and benevolence.
Explore Embodied Erotic Experience

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Believe – The power of gratitude

2016 – Lots of lessons.
I am grateful for 2016! I have the absolute joy of turning 60 and celebrating everything that all those years have given me.
I am grateful to be able to live and breath, love and give, tantalizing myself close to the threshold of 2017.

I plan to fill this new year with celebrations as I bring the Awaken Studio into the next decade. The most extraordinary gift of 2016 was my deep realization of how special, magical and awesome the creation of the Awaken Studio has been. This place has transformed my life and my vision of who I am. This place and the outreach that it has within the community has brought energy and vitality to the magic that we are able to communally create.

I am filled with joy as men gather and embody the simple undertaking of holding each other with compassion, grace and benevolence.

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Awaken Studio 2016/2017 Season

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Saturday Afternoon
Erotic Introduction
Sunday Afternoon
Practice Erotic Touch
Wednesday Evening
Explore Erotic Expression
Saturday Afternoon
Discover Erotic Information
Sunday Full Day
Expand Erotic Awareness
Evening and Morning
Naked Yoga for Men
Ecstatic Path Weekend
Erotic Sexual Journey
Queen Heart Gathering
Radical Community

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10 Years at the Awaken Studio -♥- 15 Years of working with Men and their Lives -♥- A LIFE TIME of dreams.
YUM -♥-
Excited as I create the spaces and openings for the coming year at the Awaken Studio. 10 years of growth for this sanctuary opening the deepest parts of our shared humanity.
This preparation over the next month begins my moving into the 10th year of offering the work of guiding men into their bodies through a pathway leading to their hearts. Using breath, movement, touch and awareness men can find themselves in peaceful loving places.
2016 and 2017 marks the 15th year of working with men, their lives, their hearts and minds and bodies.
In 2001 my work was with the minds of men and focused on emotion.
In 2007 my work shifted to include the physical body.
In 2007 I embarked on a journey that would bring me to the curious, lovely and poignant place I have been able to occupy.
In 2012 a great shift happened as moved into taking much more space.
Today the space of the Awaken Studio has developed into a sanctuary that is able to hold a container welcoming of all men.
I am so blessed by the great fortune that I have had, to be able to open a space and create a physical environment where men can safely occupy their bodies, embrace themselves and others, opening their hearts to their deepest desires and the open their minds to their greatest potential.

Awaken Studio Toronto

Awaken Studio Toronto

Awaken Studio Toronto

Awaken Studio Toronto

-♥-  JOY – A Queer Heart Tradition -♥-
Sweet Juicy Heart at the Awaken Studio Toronto

How is it possible to find JOY in anything?

Today as I prepared food for the gathering of the Queer Heart Talking Circle I found myself in a totally joyous state. A state similar to what I might find myself in as I prepare to go on a vacation, prepare my home for a special guest, or drive to the airport in anticipation of bringing home a family member. This JOY seemed strange to me and I pondered for a few moments and realized the profound and grounding effect of preparing food for the group of men who will gather, share their stories, lives and loves.

The Queer Heart Talking Circle has become a tradition within my realm, my life. Just as some celebrate the tradition of Christmas, get excited, feel joy and thrill at the preparation involved. Once a month I prepare for for this gathering of men, I get excited, feel joy and I get totally thrilled as I prepare food, prepare the space, polish the talismans that we will hold as we speak, place the candles and open the door.

This thrill and total state of JOY is something that I hold dear to my heart. I feel myself becoming powerful, free and clear as I enter this state of JOY. I know that this state is possible as it comes out of the tradition that we hold in the Queer Heart Talking Circle. This tradition of being KIND, GRACIOUS and CONSIDERATE of others, this tradition of feeding one another and holding space for each other as we each take our space, this tradition of gathering and holding each other in loving light. These traditions create a unique and distinct atmosphere, an atmosphere and place where we can truly be ourselves as we create expressions and extensions into the world, of our unique and individual LOVE and JOY. Writing this thrills me. Posting this thrills me. Feeling the JOY of anticipation thrills me.

I am so totally looking forward to gathering and being held within the next Queer Heart Talking Circle.

The Queer Heart Talking Circle monthly at the Awaken Studio in Toronto. Share the JOY.

Queer Heart Talking Circle - Awaken Studio - Toronto MORE?

Queer Heart Talking Circle – Awaken Studio – Toronto MORE?



Awaken Studio
Looking to the future

June 1, 2016 – As I begin the cycle and prepare the foundations for the practices and explorations that will be created at the Awaken Studio over the the next months and indeed into and through the remainder of 2016 and the first half of 2017. The focus of this next journey at the Awaken Studio and within my practice with clients and my own personal practice is the exploration and embodiment of Masculine Energy.

The JOURNEY to the Divine Masculine – Sacred Male Energy

“Male Shakti is one of the most potent powers on the planet. What are you using it for? What are you living for? Are you fighting against love or for love? Are you fighting from your wounds? From your anger, your fear, your disappointment, and disempowerment? Are you lashing out to hurt others because you have been hurt yourself? Are you programmed to defend because you have felt attacked so many times? Is there a cold place in your heart that no longer cares?”

From: True Masculine Essence

Come Out and Come In and Come Home – Awaken Studio Toronto

The Program and Event Calendar for the period of September 2016 to August 2017 will be populated over the next few weeks. Please check the web page for current events at: Awaken Studio Calendar Events with Phillip Coupal

A welcoming, safe and supportive environment for all men, to explore erotic and sexual experience, through exploratory education, experimentation, play and willing curiosity.

The Awaken Studio provides a space where with communal and humanistic intention all men are welcome to dynamically and fluidly, create, explore and or re-experience sexual story and history.

Men awaken, transform and ascend to a state of powerful, peaceful, joyful, and ecstatic transcendence.



Someone asked me “What got me interested in doing what I do?” My response took some time as I needed to go through a few layers.

Right down at the bottom was that there was nothing here in Toronto that offered me what I was looking for. A safe place for me to gather with other men, to talk, touch and simply be myself without judgement and without having to become someone that I was not.

As a part of the story, I had travelled often to the United States to participate and assist in the events that offered what I was looking for. I wanted more of this and I wanted it with the people who are directly in my life on a day to day basis. I was tired of travelling. I was tired of making myself fit the corporate image that was demanded of me to be a part of these practices, for men coming together to be themselves as they related with other men. In my travels I had learned extensively about “holding space”, “creating a safe and uplifting environment” and ultimately I had learned that one of my strengths was that I could be myself, relaxed and loving as I welcomed men into the spaces and places of my dreams. I could find myself and be myself as I supported the men around me to be themselves.

The beginning of the Awaken Studio took place here in Toronto in March of 2012 as I prepared to offer this space for many events as a part of a very diverse program. The “NEW Beginning” really took place a few months later as I realized that I was totally and profoundly alone and on my own. I realized that my travelling days were behind me and that I simply needed to stand in my own ability to create, innovate and be exactly who I wanted to be. I had to give myself permission to cut the ties and simply be me and go for what I wanted and what I had dreamed of all of my life.

From the beginning, back in 2012 and even before that, for what seems to me to be all of time, I have grown and developed and found myself. I have explored and discovered the strength to stand on my own as I accept help, love and support from those around me. I have learned and found how to transform fear and uncertainty into permission to move forward fearlessly.

As an ongoing practice of my life I express gratitude on a daily basis. Today I find that I am profoundly grateful for the teachers that have brought me to this place. I can even say that I am profoundly grateful for those who have done their best to belittle me, tell me that I am irrelevant, that I will not succeed and that I am misguided for doing this on my own, I am actually able to be thankful to these bullies and miss guided souls.   I am profoundly grateful for the men who I interact with daily for they are the reason that I live. I am profoundly grateful for my husband of over 40 years as he is the reason that I can love the way I do.

The Happy Ending is not nearly so fraught with angst and fear as the New Beginning. The Happy Ending is really an ongoing opening into the world as I become more and more myself, grateful everyday for the world around me and the LOVE and BEAUTY that supports me and nourishes me.

LOVE – LIGHT and Blessings to all.

Awaken Studio Toronto

Awaken Studio Toronto

Awaken Studio Toronto

Awaken Studio Toronto

Wondering today about heroes and I looked to Eartha Kitt.

Listening to Eartha Kitt I was struck by an act of generosity bestowed upon me by a man who I admire. This man has lived a life that I can not imagine. There was something that brought me to the life of Eartha Kitt. Reading about her life I realized why she was such an icon to Gay Men in the 60’s and 70’s. She was such a rebel and came from such a strange and tormented beginning.

There are so many elements that I can identify with as read the life and history of this beautiful and passionate woman and I mused and was inspired by the generosity of the man who took me to dinner last night.

Heroes - Acceptance - Rebellion -♥- Awaken Studio Toronto

Heroes – Acceptance – Rebellion -♥- Awaken Studio Toronto












Born in 1927 in a rural and poverty laden environment Kitt must have wondered what it was like to fit in and as well know the absolute and horrid bluntness of being rejected.


The particular element that stood out and had me in tears over my coffee was this quote:

“In a 1992 interview with Dr. Anthony Clare,  Kitt spoke about her gay following, saying:

We’re all rejected people, we know what it is to be refused, we know what it is to be oppressed, depressed, and then, accused, and I am very much cognizant of that feeling. Nothing in the world is more painful than rejection. I am a rejected, oppressed person, and so I understand them, as best as I can, even though I am a heterosexual.”

The part of this quote that rang out to me was of course the opening and my total identification with rejection. I do know what it is like to be refused. I also can identify as the man who took me to dinner last night was a man who had been “accused”, accused of a sexuality that was at that time rejected. I could identify and be very empathic as there have been certainly points in my life where I was “accused: for being gay, a homosexual. The part where I identify more though is is the deep and resounding rejection I often feel from the “culture” establishment that surrounds me and the corporate culture that I totally believe robs each individual of their humanity.

All the more reason to simply be me. All the more reason to take a stand and hold forth for what I believe is the calling of humanity.

TOUJOUR GAI From the Broadway Show “Shinbone Alley” (1957) (Joe Darion / George Kleinsinger) Eartha Kitt (Broadway Production) – 1957 Tammy Grimes (TV Production) – 1960 Carol Channing (Animated Film Production) – 1971

TOUJOUR GAI From the Broadway Show "Shinbone Alley" (1957) (Joe Darion / George Kleinsinger) Eartha Kitt (Broadway Production) - 1957 Tammy Grimes (TV Production) - 1960 Carol Channing (Animated Film Production) - 1971 
My youth I shall never forget 
But there's nothing I really regret 
The years I have poured down the drain 
Have sparkled like gold in champagne 

It's cheerio my dearrio 
Prance and pirouette 
It's cheerio my dearrio 
There's a life in me yet 
Toujour gai, toujour gai, toujour gai, toujour gai 
Toujour gai, toujour gai, toujour gai 
I sing all my troubles away 

I don't care to cry with a king 
But with any old beggar I'll sing 
I'll dance in the sun or the shade 
To any old tune that is played 
I'll sing 'neath a bleary-eyed moon 
A rowdy and rollicking tune 
But no time for sleeping have I 
I'll sleep long enough when I die 

It's cheerio my dearrio 
Prance and pirouette 
It's cheerio my dearrio 
There's a life in me yet 
Toujour gai, toujour gai, toujour gai, toujour gai 
Toujour gai, toujour gai, toujour gai 
I'll sing away my troubles 
They'll vanish like bubbles 
I'll sing all my troubles away 
Toujour gai, toujour gai, toujour gai 
(Toujour gai, toujour gai, toujour gai) 

(Transcribed by Monique Adriaansen & Mel Priddle - April 2005)