Posts Tagged ‘Diving in Deep’

 

Kinky PLAY with Flogging

Season opens September 21st at the Awaken Studio Toronto
Register online at:
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/Explore-Kinky-Play-for-Men-Erot…

Awaken Studio
Celebrating Season 10
Wednesday Evenings
Explore Erotic Expression

 

 

 

Tantra for Gay Men

Season opens September 14th at the Awaken Studio Toronto
Register online at:
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/Explore-Tantra-for-Gay-Men-Erot…

Awaken Studio
Celebrating Season 10
Wednesday Evenings
Explore Erotic Expression

 

 

 

Orgasmic Energy Exploration for Men

Explore Erotic Expression – Practice Orgasmic Yoga

Season opens September 7th at the Awaken Studio Toronto

Register online at:
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/Explore-Orgasmic-Energy-for-Men…

Awaken Studio
Celebrating Season 10
Wednesday Evenings
Explore Erotic Expression

 

Naked Yoga for Men

Tuesday Evenings 8:00 to 9:30
Season opens September 6
Andy will be sharing his practice

Thursday Evenings 8:00 to 9:30
Season opens September 8
Kevin will be sharing his practice

Thursday Evenings 8:00 to 9:30S
Saturday Mornings 10:00 to 11:30
Season opens September 10
Will will be sharing his practice

at the Awaken Studio Toronto
Register online at:
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/Naked-Yoga-for-men-Awaken-Studi…

Awaken Studio
Celebrating Season 10
Naked Yoga for Men
3 offerings per week
Pursue Peace

 

Men Explore Erotic Expression – Awaken Studio Toronto -♥- Sweet JUICY Heart -♥- Phillip Coupal

Wednesday Evening – Explore Tantra

for Men who LOVE Men 
Explore the Principles of Tantric Practice
7:00 pm to 10:00 pm
Please register before the event.
Explore Tantra for Men

  • September 14, 2016
  • October 19, 2016
  • November 9, 2016
  • December 14, 2016
  • January 11, 2017
  • February 8, 2017
  • March 8, 2017
  • April 12, 2017
  • May 10, 2017
  • June 14, 2017
  • July 12, 2017

 

Wednesday Evening – Explore Kinky PLAY for Men

Introducing the PLEASURE of KINK  
Develop SKILLS with Restraining PLAY
Develop SKILLS with Percussive PLAY
7:00 pm to 10:00 pm
Please register before the event.
Explore Kiny PLAY for Men

  • September 21, 2016 – Flogging and Spanking
  • October 26, 2016 – Full Body and Genital Rope Harness
  • November 16, 2016 – Flogging and Spanking
  • November 30, 2016 – Full Body and Genital Rope Harness
  • December 21, 2016 – Full Body and Genital Rope Harness
  • January 18, 2017 – Flogging and Spanking
  • January 25, 2017 – Full Body and Genital Rope Harness
  • February 15, 2017 – Flogging and Spanking
  • February 22, 2017 – Full Body and Genital Rope Harness
  • March 29, 2017 – Flogging and Spanking
  • April 26, 2017 – Full Body and Genital Rope Harness
  • May 17, 2017 – Flogging and Spanking
  • May 31, 2017 – Full Body and Genital Rope Harness
  • June 21, 2017 – Full Body and Genital Rope Harness
  • July 19, 2017 – Flogging and Spanking

Wednesday Evening – Explore Orgasmic Energy

Discover Orgasmic Yoga  
Develop an Orgasmic Yoga Practice
7:30 pm to 9:30 pm
Please register before the event.
Explore Orgasmic Energy

  • September 7, 2016
  • September 28, 2016
  • November 2, 2016
  • November 23, 2016
  • December 7, 2016
  • January 4, 2017
  • February 1, 2017
  • March 1, 2017
  • April 5, 2017
  • May 3, 2017
  • June 7, 2017
  • July 5, 2017

Information about any program or event please

contact Phillip at phillip@phillipcoupal.ca

Explore Tantric Practice at the Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

Explore Tantric Practice at the Awaken Studio Toronto http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

Explore Kinky PLAY and BDSM practice at the Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

Explore Kinky PLAY and BDSM practice at the Awaken Studio Toronto http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

 

Explore Orgasmic Energy and Orgasmic Yoga at the Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

Explore Orgasmic Energy and Orgasmic Yoga at the Awaken Studio Toronto http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

For current information and registration visit: Explore Erotic Expression at the Awaken Studio Toronto

The JOURNEY to the Divine Masculine - Sacred Male Energy Events and Programs for Men who LOVE Men at the Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

The JOURNEY to the Divine Masculine – Sacred Male Energy
Events and Programs for Men who LOVE Men at the Awaken Studio Toronto http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

 

 

 

 

Seeking the Divine Masculine

A Journey Towards 

Sacred Male Energy

May all beings
be filled with loving kindness.
May all beings
know great and natural peace.
May there be peace on earth,
peace everywhere.
May all beings awaken.
May all be free.
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Naked Yoga for Men
Awaken Studio Toronto
www.phillipcoupal.ca
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Celebrating our 4th season
Tuesdays September 6th 8:00 to 9:30pm
Thursdays September 8th 8:00 to 9:30pm
Saturdays September 10th 10:00 to 11:30am
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Joyful

Naked Yoga for Men at the Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

Naked Yoga for Men at the Awaken Studio Toronto http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

I am so tired of the voices of hatred, derision and division… All in the name of a gigantic corporate fabrication… All in the name of what is America… All in the name of what is resistance… All in the name of progress…
To be told, “You don’t know anything about persecution!”
The lives of many gay men are filled with visceral and violent experiences of hatred, loathing, shunning, verbal, mental and physical abuse.
To be told that these men know nothing of discrimination, hatred and sexist homophobia is, to me, intolerable.
Shout out! Shout out you message of hatred!
Tell your message to the 6 year old who is shunned because he plays with a different set of toys… Tell that your message to the 12 year old pushed, shoved, shouted at and pushed down to the ground as those around kicked….Tell your message to the 14 year old who was ridiculed, shamed and beaten simply for being different… Tell your message to the 15 year old hijacked and dropped in the woods 10 miles out town… Tell your message to the 16 year old whose cloths were laced with lye and had burns all over his body… Tell your message to the 17 year old who was teased, ridiculed punched, kicked, beaten all because his cloths were different…Tell your message to the 18 year old who was told don’t worry you will get over it… Tell your message to to the 25 year old that he “can not see his lover” in the emergency room, unconscious, lying in a coma in a shrouded deathly hospital bed… Tell your message to the 28 year old that he is not family and that his LOVE is illegal… Tell your message to the 30 year old that those guys who are going to beat you are justified because you live your life out loud and proud, that he has no RIGHT to be GAY and so QUEER…Tell your message to the 35 year old store owner whose windows were egged by those who could only hate… Tell your message to the 40 year old who is told that it is better to be a man than gay… Tell your message to the 45 year old who was told another friend has died, another loved one has been taken… Tell your message to the 50 year old that his voice is irrelevant and no one cares about what he wants for his community… Tell your message to the 55 year old who was able to conquer a life filled with loathing and bring love and tenderness back to his family.
No angry message of hatred can penetrate. No angry message of hatred can derail my life. I have lived far too long and have too much PRIDE for my life and for the accomplishments and successes that I have brought to the world. Your message of hatred and exclusion could never convert me and have me think that I am anything but positive, inclusive and welcoming of all diversity in my life. You unknowingly, paint me with a brush filled with your anger, hatred and loathing. This poisonous brush seems to cover all men, all white men, all gay white men. You and your egregious and righteous anger can never, ever convince me that I am a racist, that I know nothing but privilege, that I am exclusionary and that I am intolerant. You know nothing of my life and you know nothing of what I have been through to get to where I am today.
Out of the pain and hurt that I have felt all of my life, your message of hatred will fall on deaf ears. Your message of hatred, divisiveness and exclusion will fall silent to me. I will go on with my life. You will go on with your rage filled existence. I will continue to give and partake in community, life, happiness, joy and and love. BECAUSE I am GAY!
BECAUSE I have all of these HURTS!
BECAUSE I have lived my life to the fullest and richest that I can possibly have ever dreamt of.
BECAUSE I have given myself every opportunity I could possible take despite the poverty, adversity, hatred and prejudice that I have learned to live with.
BECAUSE I have learned to utilize your hatred to my greatest advantage.
PRIDE 2016 Toronto

PRIDE 2016 Toronto

Rejection – Pain -♥- Sweet Juicy Heart at the Awaken Studio Toronto

A voyage through pain, from many sources, to a simple discovery.

Today. Monday June 13, 2016.

Today a day of feeling so much grief, so much loss and so much pain.

Yesterday was a full day. Holding space for a gathering of men sharing from the heart, at the same time, containing my knowledge of this terrible, terrible rampage of hate and violence and murder and compounded by the weirdness of being separated, for the day, from my husband, my love.

There were so many emotional and thoughtful elements yesterday that I went to sleep with a huge burden of emotional confusion. We had spent the day speaking in our ritualized circle and what I came away with, were twinges of memory around family and secrets and how mostly it was to be a gay boy child. Spending dinner in a quiet gathering instead of what was usually a raucous and vocal group. After cleaning up, I had of course, looked at social media and read the reactions of anger, seen the pictures of the gatherings and witnessed over the internet, the pain that glowed in the candlelight, being present to the terror and the fear and horror of not knowing who was alive and who was dead. As I prepared for sleep I wondered why I was feeling so detached from the events of the day. I was numb, a state unfamiliar to me.

In the night, I dreamt, dreams that I can not remember. I woke up with a resolve to not dwell in the ever repeating world of the “news”. I resolved instead to spend the day in introspection and wondering about my own feelings and my own process.  I began the day, fixed myself a cup of coffee and looked at the newspaper. Unrolling this printed bundle of stories, the first that I read was the tormented and powerful text conversation of a mother receiving the love of her son, as he told her he was going to die and begged her to call the police and get help. The day turned solemn. All seemed hollow after reading of this parent’s love. My heart opened as I realized that I know my mother loved me in this way.

Going with my husband to lunch and not being able to speak with ease as we have in the past had this terrible confrontational conversation about gun control in the United States. We totally misunderstand each other and this creates some level of pain within me. The reason we go to lunch together is to prepare ourselves for the counselling session that we will be attending as a couple. During lunch I wonder how things will go. Just after lunch at the counsellor’s office which is just across the street we begin our conversation. My mood being as dark as it has been in a long time, my emotions running in a rich and dense pulse through me and my wanting so much to be understood.

We proceed in the session. Our conversation is deep and the love that we have for each other very present. The pain that we each had a sharp and constant draw of the blade. Our conversation continues, our understanding deepening our connection, solidifying who we are together. The sharing we create assisting each of us in going a little deeper. Our conversation falls from the torment of the present to the pains of the past.

Through the conversation the depth I reached was not surprising, as much as terrifying. I think I truly scared myself as I revealed the suicidal thoughts, the dark and horrible pain and the frustration of not sensing that I could reveal myself. The pain of being in relationship and not feeling that I could be me. The truth came out. The truth of hurt and loss and self-deprecation and sublimation of self to get acceptance and love. The joyful and uplifting part was that no part of this torment was actually coming from my husband. This torment came through me and my own process, and is a direct result of the many rejections that I have experienced and felt in my life.

In this session, I discovered that rejection can create pain, in the mind and in the body. That from rejection, humans can feel pain on emotional and physical levels. This pain not unlike the pain that comes from a cut or other physical violence. This pain, in me, so awful and so old. This pain connected in the most surprising places. Places that I had not connected before. Places that I thought were far in the past and if not from the far past that I had dealt with and survived. These rejections that had caused so much pain came from the rejection of who I was as a boy by my father, a myriad of rejections as to who I have been in my life as a male, rejections from contemporaries of my body and my way, of being and finally the most visceral rejection by the director of the American corporation that I had worked for over a five-year period.

All of this caused me to seek out some information about rejection, emotional abuse and pain. My quest for information, not surprising, given the myriad bursts of pain that I feel. Pain that is intensified when I am insecure about who I am. This pain can become greater when I am in the visceral act of separating myself from the perpetrator and the agents of the rejection and ostracism. I wondered about how this connected in a historical way, especially with my father, the experiences in school and the life I lived as a gay boy in a small rural setting. The information for me, from me, was that over time and space those old pains had settled. The new pain, the pain that I felt the strongest, was the pain and emotional violence from the most recent abuse. The cause of this pain and the perpetrator of the rejection was very obvious. Next was to search for the trigger of this newest wave of emotional pain.

I thought that the trigger was in something to do with colliding groups and conflicting values, all present in my day on Sunday and with the group that had gathered and all the energy that was brought forward looking to family connections. My next discovery was surprising. The pain that I have been feeling is not connected to this old pain, the pain comes directly from being told, by the director of the school that I had worked for, that I was “IRRELEVANT!”. The pain was being inflicted on me by the voice and actions of that inhumane, corporate director who said that what I cared for did not matter. Who I was was irrelevant. That my vision and my dream was not relevant to his business or the community that I was working from. The subsequent corporate bullying and the legal threats that ensued, were all backed up by the director’s partners, created an intensification of the pain then, and now.

All this emotional violence, the pain of isolation, the pain of having my voice muted and the pain of ostracization were flooding in me. I had worked so hard to contain the discomfort and distress perpetrated by my tormentor. The wound that I had so carefully addressed was irritated by all the recent vulnerability and was running close under the surface. The most painful part was that further below was the volcanic pain of being in the face of hatred and rejection. This intense pain of rejection and isolation was deeply triggered by the senseless hatred, violence and murder unleashed against the innocence of a group gathering to share in the dancing and loving and pure joy of being themselves in that nightclub in Orlando, Florida.

The conscious spirit streaming in me that needs to be myself, clashed with the historic message that I was not allowed to be who I truly was. This message of rejection most recently delivered by that managing director, I had worked for and then reinforced by his business partner. This rejection subsequently compounded and further reinforced by the forced ostracism and shunning by many of those I had worked with over those five years. My voice had been silenced. My vocal chords cut away by the threat of legal action.

Time has not healed this slash. My anger at being silenced and shunned has not dissipated. The wound has not been salved by loving self expression.  The hurt and pain has not been replaced by the good works of years of dedication to self and conscious acts of self care. The flow of love that has calmed the pain of all those decades ago, has not calmed the hurt from this most recent rejection. The pain of that rejection inflamed and intensified by watching the senseless hate filled murder of those who are like me, those who were simply being themselves.

I wonder now, several hours later, what self-loving acts it will take to let me be myself, free of the pain of conformation. Secure in the fact that the world that I create loves me and accepts me. Will it be more of the practice of kindness, compassion and grace that I instill in the groups of men that I gather? Will it be more of the excitement and joy that is created when I can work with a man and create an experience that fulfills his deepest dreams? Will it be more glorious dancing? Will it be simply in the beauty of self expression and the great freedom that unfolds when a gathering of men can come together and practice loving kindness with both themselves and others?

From my musing today, I know that there are somethings that will ease over time. There are some things I will never forget. I know that there are somethings that I can forgive. Finally, I know with all of my heart that I simply can not forgive the senseless violence that is perpetrated on the earth, I can not forgive the murder of innocence nor the slaughter of fellow human beings.

I know, in every atom of my being that I deserve to be on this earth. I know, that my voice and my love will persevere through all of my work and all that I create. I know, with every fiber of my physical form that those who dare to be themselves will never be extinguished, will never be eradicated from this earth.

I look forward to the day when life is free from pain and we can be gloriously loving, gracious and kind human beings.

Someone asked me “What got me interested in doing what I do?” My response took some time as I needed to go through a few layers.

Right down at the bottom was that there was nothing here in Toronto that offered me what I was looking for. A safe place for me to gather with other men, to talk, touch and simply be myself without judgement and without having to become someone that I was not.

As a part of the story, I had travelled often to the United States to participate and assist in the events that offered what I was looking for. I wanted more of this and I wanted it with the people who are directly in my life on a day to day basis. I was tired of travelling. I was tired of making myself fit the corporate image that was demanded of me to be a part of these practices, for men coming together to be themselves as they related with other men. In my travels I had learned extensively about “holding space”, “creating a safe and uplifting environment” and ultimately I had learned that one of my strengths was that I could be myself, relaxed and loving as I welcomed men into the spaces and places of my dreams. I could find myself and be myself as I supported the men around me to be themselves.

The beginning of the Awaken Studio took place here in Toronto in March of 2012 as I prepared to offer this space for many events as a part of a very diverse program. The “NEW Beginning” really took place a few months later as I realized that I was totally and profoundly alone and on my own. I realized that my travelling days were behind me and that I simply needed to stand in my own ability to create, innovate and be exactly who I wanted to be. I had to give myself permission to cut the ties and simply be me and go for what I wanted and what I had dreamed of all of my life.

From the beginning, back in 2012 and even before that, for what seems to me to be all of time, I have grown and developed and found myself. I have explored and discovered the strength to stand on my own as I accept help, love and support from those around me. I have learned and found how to transform fear and uncertainty into permission to move forward fearlessly.

As an ongoing practice of my life I express gratitude on a daily basis. Today I find that I am profoundly grateful for the teachers that have brought me to this place. I can even say that I am profoundly grateful for those who have done their best to belittle me, tell me that I am irrelevant, that I will not succeed and that I am misguided for doing this on my own, I am actually able to be thankful to these bullies and miss guided souls.   I am profoundly grateful for the men who I interact with daily for they are the reason that I live. I am profoundly grateful for my husband of over 40 years as he is the reason that I can love the way I do.

The Happy Ending is not nearly so fraught with angst and fear as the New Beginning. The Happy Ending is really an ongoing opening into the world as I become more and more myself, grateful everyday for the world around me and the LOVE and BEAUTY that supports me and nourishes me.

LOVE – LIGHT and Blessings to all.

Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

Awaken Studio Toronto http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

Awaken Studio Toronto www.phillipcoupal.ca

Awaken Studio Toronto http://www.phillipcoupal.ca

March … the month of NEW beginnings
Begin something NEW this week at the Awaken Studio
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Tuesday March 8 – 8:00 pm to 9:30 pm
Naked Yoga for Men
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-1987705
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Wednesday March 8 – 7:00 pm to 10:00 pm
Explore Tantra for Men
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-2002045
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Thursday March 10 – 8:00 pm to 9:30 pm
Orgasmic Energy Exploration for Men
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-2006882
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Saturday March 12 – 10:00 am to 11:30 am
Naked Yoga for Men
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-2008392
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Sunday March 13 – 1:00 pm top 5:30 pm
Queer Heart Talking Circle
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-2031674
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Registration continues for
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Ecstatic Path Weekend Experience
with William McMeniman and Phillip Coupal
April 29, 30 and May 1
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-2099932
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Kamasuta the Pleasure Journey
Summer Day Camp for Men
July 2 to 8
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-1996740
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Information – Curiousity – Questions
Email Phillip at phillip@phillipcoupal.ca

Tuesday March 8 - 8:00 pm to 9:30 pm Naked Yoga for Men  http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-1987705

Tuesday March 8 – 8:00 pm to 9:30 pm
Naked Yoga for Men
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-1987705

Wednesday March 8 - 7:00 pm to 10:00 pm Explore Tantra for Men http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-2002045

Wednesday March 8 – 7:00 pm to 10:00 pm
Explore Tantra for Men
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-2002045

Thursday March 10 - 8:00 pm to 9:30 pm Orgasmic Energy Exploration for Men http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-2006882

Thursday March 10 – 8:00 pm to 9:30 pm
Orgasmic Energy Exploration for Men
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-2006882

Saturday March 12 - 10:00 am to 11:30 am Naked Yoga for Men http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-2008392

Saturday March 12 – 10:00 am to 11:30 am
Naked Yoga for Men
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-2008392

Sunday March 13 - 1:00 pm top 5:30 pm Queer Heart Talking Circle http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-2031674

Sunday March 13 – 1:00 pm top 5:30 pm
Queer Heart Talking Circle
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-2031674

Ecstatic Path Weekend Experience with William McMeniman and Phillip Coupal April 29, 30 and May 1 http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-2099932

Ecstatic Path Weekend Experience
with William McMeniman and Phillip Coupal
April 29, 30 and May 1
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-2099932

Kamasuta the Pleasure Journey Summer Day Camp for Men July 2 to 8 http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-1996740

Kamasuta the Pleasure Journey
Summer Day Camp for Men
July 2 to 8
http://www.phillipcoupal.ca/event-1996740